I'm tired of being treated like SHIT.
I'm tired of being looked at as nothing more than a BANK ACCOUNT.
I'm tired of my family taking my hopes and dreams and CRUSHING THEM UNDER THEIR BOOTS.
I'm tired of being so GOD DAMNED BROKE.
I'm tired of always having to WAIT to Start My Business.
I'm tired of having to DEFEND MY LIFESTYLE.
I'm tired of my ARTWORK.

I'M TIRED OF MY LIFE.

It was NOT about you, it was about OUR PARENTS and the towns I MOVED TO. You read ONE PART of a sentence and it wasn't even DIRECTED to you! Everything else that I've ranted about, complained about, and cried about you ignored because you're so stuck on yourself you don't see the MISERY that are in others.

Guess what! I'm MISERABLE. I've been miserable since I was kicked out of your house THE DAY BEFORE I EVEN LEFT NORTH CAROLINA.

I'm tired of living.

I just want to die.

And ya know what?

That's not directed at you either.

I give up. Just leave me alone while I go be "emo" since I'm not worth anything else.

Didn't win the lottery.

Only one number matched.

Dammit. I must've jinxed myself somehow.

Now to figure out what the hell I'm doing for today.

dammit i'd kill the planet for something warm and sweetish to eat. stupid cold wet days.

It's raining, it's pouring,
The sleepy Dog is snoring,
He went to bed when lightening cracked his head,
And he didn't get up in the morning.

Been raining since last night. Rockport-Fulton had accumulated over 10" of rainfall as of this morning. Suffice to say I'm stuck inside for the duration. Managed to snap some photos when I got up this morning (after a truly ROUGH night of non-sleep).

Went to the Gulf Coast yesterday. Found all kinds of shells and coral and stuff. Very awesome. Went to Red Lobster right after (I wanted so much seafood) and stuffed myself. Next time we go to CC, we're hitting Golden Corral (ShrimpFest and they keep clams on the buffet) and Joe's Crabshack, along with the mall.

Stop looking at me like that, I'm not a mall-rat, Mom just wants to know if they got good pretzels….and there's a Half-Priced Book right across the street.

Can't wait for Sunday. Trying not to think about it. Don't wanna jinx myself. No words until then.

Shhhhhh.

Humpty Dumpty sat on a wall.
Humpty Dumpty had a great fall.
All the King's horse and all the King's men,
Couldn't put Humpty together again.

....where does it say that Humpty was ever an egg?

I like to make myself believe that planet earth turns slowly,
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep,
'Cause not everything is as it seems.--Fireflies, Owl City



Sometimes I feel like a total insomniac, like I'll go to sleep ever again. It tends to happen right when I'm on the verge of falling over. When I'm too tired to sleep and too wound up, like my brain won't shut off. I start noticing things, like the feel of my blanket on my legs, the soft pile of my stuffed fuzzy under my fingertips, fingertips that doesn't have much feeling anymore due to construction work. I concentrate hard on my breathing and it feels alien. GAH! That's painful to actually NOTICE something like that. Yuck.

Other times I just want to sleep and never wake up. I have lucid dreams, the air is warm against bare shoulders, and breathing happens so easily that sometimes I just forget to exhale.

I went to this restaurant tonight. The Crab-N. Never occurred to me that it would be one of those fancy seafood places. The food was horrible. The Chef should be ashamed. It was bland. BLAND! And I hate bland. And we will NOT be discussing the "Key Lime Pie". I just wish I had recorded Mom's reaction to a bite. The look on her face was priceless. Hey, I told her it was fake and gross.

Not MY fault she never listens.

Suffice to say; Dad refused to try any. At least SOMEONE'S tastebuds were spared.

Next time I want seafood (just watch, I'll want some more in a couple of meals), I'm going back to the Chinese place or the Boiling Pot. Mmmmm, CAJUN.

Have to move campgrounds next month. Mom and Dad finally got it through their thick skulls that Fulton, Rockport, and Aransas won't let us set up. Corpus Christi is HAPPY to have us. Oi. BLOODY. Vay. I was just about to give up and WALK back to Chii's house and beg her to take me in, at least until I managed to get a job and a place somewhere. She keeps mocking the cart so I don't think she'd let me take it back with me (especially if I left Mom and Dad high and dry). I'm too much a chicken to do that, though. Full of guilt for even THINKING it. Damnit.

Volunteered for an anime con. Video Room's my first choice. I tend to spend most my time in those, anyhow. Security's next, followed by Guest Relations. Figured it look good on my Karma Resume (And I get free rooming and into the Con for free so, nooooooo, I'm not doing it for ulterior motives! :D)



Circle me and the needle moves gracefully back and forth,
if my heart was a compass you'd be north.
Risk it all 'cause I'll catch you when you fall
where ever you go if my heart was a house you'd be home.--If My Heart Was A House, Owl City (EDITED TO ADD: Forgot to close my tag)



Finally finally finally FINAL-FRIKKEN-LY got a damned cuppa joe. I got it from the Allstate insurer. We have to insure the business. So I got a cuppa mostly cold joe while there. Ngh. One the plus side, found that Atkins now have two new coffee flavoured shakes. I picked up the caramel one, because I like caramel coffee. Haven't tried it yet but I hope like hell that it will be good, I have had coffee in a MONTH.

Have noticed something...off. I drink a diet soda (FOUND DIET RC! Sweetened with splenda, has caffeine, and it's GOOD! O.O) and a couple days later I'm dehydrated as hell. o.O At least, that's what Mom thinks happened. I was dehydrated for two straight days (finally hydrated back to normal today) for the first time since I've gotten here and I didn't think I had changed anything. I mean, I drink about 3-4 liters of water a day. I think. According to WikiAnswer, I get about 3.75 liters (give or take a pint, fuzzy math for the win!), by calculating how many times I fill my 32oz bottle (about 4 times). Still dunno how I got that dehydrated but I'm okay now so....meh.

Went to Cici's today while I was in Corpus. Ate 4 slices of pizza before my carb intolerance kicked in full power. >.< NO FAIR! I WANT TO EAT PIZZA AGAIN, DAMMIT! *POUTS* Ugh, I spent the next three hours feeling lethargic and sick. Can't even have a plate of 'sketti for dinner without feeling hung-over the next morning. That's just frustrating as hell. And I still haven't found a low-carb pasta that isn't gross.

I've been badly frustrating Dad lately. He was so happy to find PallMall cigs at Wally World for under $3 a pack....only to find them being DISCONTINUED. And I'm not buying him any others. Hahahahaqhhaha, he's gotten so damned ANNOYING lately dogdammitI'mgonnahurthimandMomiftheydon'tchillthehellout! GRRRRRRRR! ....I need a smoke.

The wind picked up today, and the canopy was on the ground when we got back. :-\ I was greatly surprised, I though Mom and Dad were going to blow up (they had been making HUGE SWISS ALPS out of mole hills lately). ....it was a pod-person moment when they said "meh" and pulled the canopy down. We're sans canopy now, but the part we need is this little thing that screws in. 16$. No problem. I'm still waiting for the blow-up.

Well, back hurts. Going to go to bed. Oh, and I need to go buy another MP3 player. I just downloaded over 3GIGs worth of Daft Punk. My MP3 player is only 4GIGs. And the entirety of Beethoven's Ode To Joy, three albums by Thrice, one album by Blue October, one album by Owl City, and about 18 (give or take 3) single songs by various artists (Including Waka-Laka). This thing is gonna be FULL.

Bed now, sleeps.

Had Mom trim my fuzz and now she won't stop going on about how "cute" I look. >.< And stop messing with my cow-lick! *Protects cow-lick*

Need to do laundry. I am out of pants.

Downloaded some Beethoven.

Downloaded some scanlations of One Piece (Sanji-Zoro). Must learn Japanese text, dammit.

No ungodly idea what I'm gonna do today other than laundry and read.

So I'm broke.

not happy.

leave alone to cry.

Boy, today has been BUSY!

Found a place to stay.
Found a good cajun seafood place.
Went foodstuffs shopping.
Too cloudy and rainy for the beach.

Dah Dog is TIRED. I'm gonna locate some funny fanfics and read until din-din, at which point it's movie time! The Taking of Pelham 123 and Ice Age 3.

And now, the brain gets turned off.

Zzzzzz

*Points to MP3 player*

It's. ORANGE.

http://www.walmart.com/catalog/product.do?product_id=10993378

MEDIA DARLING: And now we go to our agent in the field.

MASS HYSTERIA: Mass Hysteria here, coming to you live from in front of the Green House. With the Private Elections just hours away from being revealed to the General Public, speculations are on-going about just who will be leading us to the Revival this coming year.

Major Crush has made a brief statement on the matter but we are unable to show you as he took quite a fainting spell in the middle of his sentence.

In Further News, the Apathy Movement has been halted in the middle of their Non-Plans by the Exceedingly Lazy. When asked for a statement they both responded with "meh".

Public Discourse ran rampant in the halls today following the stalemate of her higher officer in charge, Minor Assembly. Minor Assembly forfeited the game to Angry Mob and hasn't been seen outside of her office since. Public Discourse lost her shoe in the stairwell. If anyone finds, please turn it in to the State Pumpkin.

More News from Quantum Physics on the hour. Back to you, Media Darling.

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9AM this morning, mountain time.

THERE IS SNOW ON THE MOUNTAINS SOUTH OF US.

FRICK!

I FOUND MY SCOOTER! Someone's selling on in Corpus Christi that looks JUST LIKE the one that Sister wrecked (I still wish you hadn't wrecked it, Chii)!!! Only difference; no custom paintjob and instead of black stuff it's silver, BUT IT'S YELLOW!

http://corpuschristi.craigslist.org/mcy/1428675895.html

.....Chiiiiiiiiiiiiiii......

*Ducks bricks and car motors*

Okay, okay, I won't ask ya to buy it for me! Yeesh-ACK! *Beaned by stove*

....Daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad! TAKE ME TO CORPUS NOW! ACK! *Beaned by can of chili*







Ow. Dammit, why can't I ever find my scooter in a nearby town, huh? With my crappy luck it'll be sold by the time I get there! D: Dammit, maybe I'm asking too much again. I must be. I mean, I got to save up my money to pay for the damned fees, gas, rent, and supplies, I can't afford to spend 450$ on a scooter.

Damn.

ETA: Link went bye-bye but was relisted. I feel better.
http://corpuschristi.craigslist.org/mcy/1431072546.html

Tsunderekko (Harsh Outside-Gentle Inside)
[ ] You come off as sort of aloof to other people.
[x] In public, you intentionally refrain from showing much weakness.
[ ] You have a secret obsession with something cute.
[ ] You pretend that you hate your crush even though you really love him/her.
[x] You blush when people point out your sensitivities.
[ ] You blush when people tell sexual jokes.
Total: 2

Yanderekko (Gentle Outside-Harsh Inside)
[ ] You’re very sweet and kind in public.
[ ] When romance becomes a topic of discussion, people say your personality changes drastically.
[x] You know some sort of martial art, swordplay, or otherwise.
[x] You have a crush who you’d literally kill for.
[x] You have a pet-peeve that makes you snap.
[x] Bipolar?
Total: 4

Meganekko (Girl-with-Glasses Character)
[ ] you have glasses (obviously).
[x] You can sometimes be clumsy, ditzy, or absent-minded.
[ ] You are always very polite in your speech.
[x] You are fairly intelligent in some field.
[x] You take discipline seriously.
[x] You have some sort of fetish for something
Total: 4

Tsukkomi (Angry Guy)
[x] You have a friend who often makes dumb or embarrassing remarks.
[x] You smack/beat up this friend in some way.
[ ] You do your best to maintain a calm facade, only to be thwarted by this friend.
[ ] You swear a lot.
[ ] You try to bring out the more serious side of your ridiculous friend.
Total: 2

Boke (Dumb Guy)
[x] You often make silly or embarrassing comments.
[x] You like annoying the heck out of your best friend.
[x] You often get beaten up by your friend in some way, but you take it in good stride.
[x] If you & your friend were a yin-yang, you’d be the “yin”.
[ ] You are normally very laidback and carefree.
[x] You try to bring out the happier side of your angry friend.
Total: 5

Nadeshiko (Perfect Wife)
[ ] You are always, almost overly polite.
[ ] You love traditional Japanese culture.
[ ] You often wear either a kimono, yukata (summer cotton kimono), or apron.
[ ] You’re an excellent cook.
[ ] You are hardly ever angry.
[ ] You have really long hair.
Total: 0

Tomboy Character
[x] You feel comfortable in boy’s clothing.
[x] You have short hair.
[ ] You have a crush whom you act friendly with rather than romantically.
[ ] You are really good at sport/s.
[ ] You are admired by girls and boys for your talents, though you’re sort of in denial.
[x] You show your girly features on rare occasions.
Total: 3

Sexy Character
[ ] Your bust/package is...formidable.
[ ] You like making sexual innuendos.
[ ] You encourage trips to the beach, pool, or onsen
[x] There are some sexual things that you are ignorant to or need explained to you.
[ ] You’re an expert cosplayer.
[ ] You like the taste of alcohol.
Total: 1

And at last...Lolita LOLO/Shota SHOTO Character
[ ] You like sweets or chocolate.
[ ] You adore cute things and/or the word “kawaii”.
[x] You use Japanese suffixes like “-chan,” “-tan,” “-sempai,” etc...
[ ] You add unnecessary suffixes to the ends of your sentences, like “nyo,” “nyu,” “un,” etc…
[x] You are considered gullible or naive.
[x] You have a tall/powerful friend who protects you.
Total: 3


Dude, I'm DUMB GUY! ....uh-huh, I KNEW THAT!

I don't post news, I post seizures-performed-on-keyboard.

Fall Out Boy covered MJ's Beat It.
The Used covered Queen and David Bowie's Under Pressure.

....does no one do their own songs anymore?!

Moving on...

Today was a pretty lousy day. I watched PART of Marley&Me (I read the book, I knew when to turn it off), it was like everyone was angry at me this morning, and I made a grand total of 8$ at the Farmer's Market today.

I feel like throwing up. -_-

....was found lacking. -_-

SATURDAY!
8PM (or 8:30, sometimes it starts late)
HBO!
THE MUMMY: TOMB OF THE DRAGON EMPEROR!
BE THERE OR BE SQUARE!

:D

...they'd be singing "HOT DOGS! BARBECUE! COME AND GET IT!"

Worked on the cart today. It now sports a snazzy looking roof (Must charge camera to take a photo). It still needs the gingerbread molding and needs touch-ups, but it's clean and ready for tomorrow.

Still need to wash the dishes, though. D:

You go to one of your favourite restaurants and can't remember who the hell you pay (locate hostess or waiter). *_*

Sorry, Waiter-San! I left a tip, I promise!

I eated too much and I didn't even get the tirimisu!





I went to Olive Garden.

Did laundry today.

And that's it.

Missed the load of whites though (DAMN!) but Mom's gonna do them while I'm working the cart.

Bathtime for das Mels now.

Mmmm, tea.


MMmmmmmm, SLEEP.